A Curious Sort of Mindfulness

I’m in the midst of a low intensity medical emergency. In December I was diagnosed with bladder and kidney cancer. They were caught early so I entered treatment healthy. I’ve had the first of two necessary surgeries. Within three days my energy returned, but something else hard to name hasn’t. Maybe stamina. I have the energy to move at my normal pace, but if I do so I get a little faint or dizzy. Dragging about doesn’t work well either. Body, mind, and spirit are moving at different speeds. I need to stand up straight and breath deep. Be mindful and move slightly slower, keeping good posture.

My habitual way of being in the world isn’t working in the hopefully temporary, changed circumstances. Curiouser and curiouser.